I have been deeply grieving the death of my oldself and the death of an old world filled with poisons and outdated paradigms, “as within so without”, we say, “as above so below”, we say. Ah so, what is it really within is that is reflecting all around us? Who is still carrying the need to learn through violence and the illusions of separateness. The universe breathes you and every breath part of you goes back home, part of you dies and part of you becomes alive again. I see the signs of true life and love entering my being again and for this I am certain True Life and True Love must be entering the earth again.
The process of awakening to one's inner truth is a process of allowance, allowance of the divine to enter deeply into the wounded warrior parts of each of us, woven lineages of cellular memorials. This process of allowing self love is to shine a fiery light on the darkness, to wash a watery wave through the barren and stuck, to grow roots into the purpose of BEing, to breathe fresh life into what was no longer breathing, through this entrance of prana we allow prakriti to flow through us and as we observe being in the flow of nature we expand infinitely into ourselves. Often, this process requires a stage of deep destruction to alleviate the pressures around a dormant and stagnant core, emotions crystallized around the meaning of self and soul. I have been grieving my way into my soul again, i have been raging my way into my body again and burning with the fires of shiva all that is no longer serving me and the process continues as i am dying away and the True me is coming back out of their shell. We are here to be part of this particular wave of change, that has always been my calling, deep rest and deep acknowledgement of the hidden layers of my own inner depths searching for recognition was necessary to destroy and offer the self limiting i to the earth within me as an ever fertile compost for the mucky swamp from which i will rise.
My heart has been washed with love uncondtional a principle i acquainted with yet apologetically realise i had never yet fully embodied. I have confronted the parts of me which have been frustrated and angry at nearly everything and through this confrontation they sure fought back and through embracing them in practice i was taken to all the roots and branches across the world related to my shame of being a human at this time, in this cycle so short yet so long.
Ajna flew me through my soul and heart lines as i shook, cried, screamed and dragged the chains of support along with me as it becomes a burden to be a burden. Sahsrara slingshot me into the galactic spiral and showed me the earth from above and i danced in my room, on my patio at the beach in the throes of praying to simply dive into her waves to surrender, never to be seen again, so i shook out the consciousness which hates the self and broke through the prison of not enough as i called to the light of the divinity within my loneliness to remember the source of us all.
Anahata showed me my grief and plunged me deep down into the core of the earth, she whispered to me of her fears of being so sick and told me we would heal together and so we sat in the fire of our core at the shores of avalon and cries oceans of light across our bodies, gaia and i pray each day together for us all to remember we are one. If you have chronic pain, sit out in nature and ask mother earth, why do i carry this pain? Mostly she just wants to speak with us. If we can simply listen, we can set things right. My yells turned to animals, my cries turned to songs, my pain turned to laugh crying and my laughter turned to burning anger and i remembered i am the elements and i am all things. I apologise and forgive myself for allowing the crossfire. I have the power to breathe, to pray, to move and to love myself, in these gifts i can alchemise all that i feel and become balance. My songs turned to prayers and my hands become stories, my dances returned to devotion and bows for the water and my breath as i could finally feel the light of the sun again which reminded me how to sing.
Vishuddha breathed new life into me from root to crown and divine inspiration flowed from all that is the temply of this vessel. I remember I am capable and i have a voice. Thank you so many for listening and few for listening so deeply thank you as deeply as you held space for me i thank you as infinitely creation.
Manipura knows no time and reminda that this journey is not linear it is all about trust. Just as the waves of life toss us through consciousness manipura reminded me how to pray for my brothers and sister across the earth, guides by love, divinely offered in trust. Sometimes it helps to negotiate with the universe lol. Trust is real. Everything is always provided for.
Thank you to great spirit for guidance and assitance, thank you for love and intuition. In the fires of svadisthana balance came to teache me and from extreme to extreme and spinning like a top i explored the feelings of stuckness and invited them to become joyous. The process has been heavy and the waves are swift and strong yet my power as a creator has guided me and each day i am remembering to celebrate the death of the old and the birth of the True.
Muladhara takes me home again to the heart of our mother and lifts me up into nourishment and connection with each other.
We are instruments of creation aa integral as trees. When we cut them down disrespectfully so we do cut down we. Degradation of nature is degradation of self, humanity seems to like to indulge in adding insult to injury. We oppress each other, we oppress our mother. Ah, so, what to do? Celebrate!
Celebrate each breath as the death of the self you no longer need even if that aspect is simply a passing thought, breathe it away and let it die. Enter deeply into remembering who you are and allow yourself to feel, celebrate and be grateful for each moment of the dying away just as a tree is happy to get lighter and rest in the fall. The harvest comes when we let go of what was. Pain is alchemised into golden drops of reverence, jewels of joy and gifts of strong will. I commit each day to continuing this process of shedding.
I see the signs of the True Earth unfolding. No agenda can stop the changes underway and no governments will end up trustworthy. Let it all go, the possibilities of where we are headed are so much more than we allow ourselves to perceive. Mother Earth is speaking dear family, relatives. We walk here together, she is asking us to listen, we need to listen to her.
We are allowed to walk softly on the earth and be in love and freedom in every moment We are allowed to have our own sovereignty and answer to our wills and needs of the heart and soul without being controlled by programmed systems. We are allowed to make our own decisions We are allowed to free ourselvea from any and all limiting beliefs and situations We are allowed to discover infinite possibilities and work with them to restore balance to the planet We are allowed to let love flow through us guiding the power of the heart centre forward into he vortex of evolution We are allowed to be free Now is the time to give ourselves permission to BE
Now is the time to remove permissions from those who oppress and control the evolutionary scope of possibilities of humanity
Now is the time to ascend!
Truly anything is possible! What will you create?
